Why it’s so hard to rise
11 June 2026
I was writing for my website the other day, and this very act spiralled me into a topic that keeps on unpacking. In working on my website I again had to think about what it really is that I have to offer to someone else. And why. And I asked myself, what can I be more honest about? What has been the theme in my life, and how does this theme play a role in my current life? And how does that challenge me and support my path?
It came to me that the most honest answer to these questions was about my encounters with darkness and heaviness. These are frequencies that have pulled hard at me in different phases of my life. Causing me to loose hope, causing me to settle, causing me to choose safety, over and over again. Causing me to not follow my dreams, to not pull through with something I really felt and really wanted in the beginning, causing me to not say the thing that would turn things around, causing me to stall and freeze and amount to nothing. Causing me to be a heavyhearted, depressed, anxious and fearfull being for periods of time.
Sharing it from a personal perspective, is apparently a risky thing, still. When I feel into it, it touches on safety, and control. Wanting to be able to manage peoples opinions about me. Wanting people to think highly of me. I notice some resistance towards putting myself in a corner where not everyone will follow.
It’s where I’ve been most in my truth, that I’ve experienced the biggest setbacks. These where the moments in life that I was most disillusioned and disappointed, because I was met with the most misunderstanding, the most resistance, and the least reciprocity.
This article is not necessarily about me, but more about why this happens. Why we’re not just simply celebrated by everything and everyone for our uniqueness and greatness, and vice versa. And importantly, why we’re not always able to simply celebrate others for their uniqueness and greatness. This article is about the dynamics of light and dark, outside of us and within us.
A world that is anti light
Imagine a hyper sensitive, intelligent, pure being, fully open and with a giant consciousness, entering a world that doesn’t appreciate that, a world that is against or in fact anti that..
